Day 43

Doing ok, loosing weight according to my scale. 5 pounds actually, will believe it on Wednesday .  Haven't been eating proper lunches , keep forgetting to buy chicken, maybe I'll go tomorrow and get some.  Not going to my Aquafit class tonight, just don't feel like it lately.

Day 41

I haven't been keeping up with my blog posts.  It's been a super rough week.  My van died on Wednesday and everything just seemed to go downhill from there.  I have never wanted to give up on my diet more then I have this week, I've been crabby and hungry and thinking I'm not even loosing so why bother.  I eventually snapped out of this negative thinking and I'm back on track.  I actually haven't been that hungry lately so that is good.  Weighed myself this morning and saw a 3 pound loss, yay!  We will see what the weight watchers scales say. I think I weigh more there as I am totally dressed in jeans and a warm shirt. At home I weigh myself in my pjs or with no clothes at all, that tells you your correct weight.

Day 35 & 36

Day 35, Sunday, I bought a new couch and 2 new end tables!! I have never had new end tables, always hand me downs from years ago! I desperately needed the new couch, mine is about 30 years old and the cushions are ripped on one side, I will have to keep the dogs off of my new one somehow!!
I pigged out all night, started with the Galava Brad and I drank while playing Monopoly, then I was hungry so I ate the remaining pasta we had for supper and I had about 5 extra Weight Watchers bars before bed, back at it today though ( Monday ), I will be so angry with myself if I have gained weight this week!!

Day 33 & 34

Day 33, Friday.......last night I caved, I got frustrated and I ate the chocolate bar, not just a piece, the whole damn thing, it felt good too, no regrets.  Now I will try to get back on track. Maybe it is the long winter with the tons of snow we are getting that is making me crazy and wanting to eat, who knows, but I am powerless when I get like this, powerless against food :(
In overeaters anonymous they go through the twelve steps, just like in AA.  The steps can also be applied to overeating, I've got Number 1 down pat.
I had cheese and grapes and almonds for supper, then I had a peanut butter and banana sandwich , a few WW bars and some grapes, I'm struggling all of a sudden, I don't want to do this but at the same time I know I must. To some this may not be a struggle, you may think of me as weak, I am strong until it comes to food, in that case I am weak , I hate it, just hate it.

Day 34, Saturday......I am sitting on the computer when I need to be getting my housework done, I am lacking the motivation however. It will get done, it just looks like it's going to take awhile at this rate.  Perhaps if I have some breakfast I will be able to get going. We will see.
I did it, all of it! yay me :)

Day 32 & 33

Been so busy lately I haven't had time to post. Yesterday was Day 32 as well as the Weight Watchers meeting.  I lost a pound, big deal. So frustrated to be eating properly, doing exercise and only loosing a pound.  I'm angry that I'm fat, angry at myself for letting it get this far but more angry at my metabolism, I have never known how it feels to be skinny, I want it so bad but I gotta say it's getting harder to stay on this diet. I tried online shopping today, they gave me a big chocolate bar as a thank you, I want to eat it so bad, so far I am resisting the urge to do so.

Day 30 & 31

Yesterday, Monday, was Day 30.  I was super good , counting points, until supper.  Brad and I decided to give Home Fresh a try.  It is locally source ingredients and recipes delivered right to your door once a week.  I ordered the veggie package as I am not a big meat eater, rather an extremely picky meat eater. Anyway the recipes have been great , low calorie for the most part with ingredients that are zero points on Weight Watchers.  After eating last night I entered the ingredients into my point counter, in hind site I should have done it before , the 1 cup of buckwheat blend was a whopping 18 points!! yikes! I immediately went over my points, :(  I had Aquafit last night so I worked off some of the calories but at 9:30 I was sooooo hungry I had 2 slices of bread with peanut butter.  I am so angry at myself that I couldn't just hold off eating.  Tonight there will be NO CHEATING!!!! I will starve until morning or eat fruit only as they are zero points.
Today, Tuesday, is a Day off, I am bringing Ash in to work to bath him, I will do Kort tomorrow. Gotta go work off more calories!

Day 28 & 29

Yesterday which was Saturday I spent at a Barn Hunt Match with my Flatcoated Retriever Lync.  We left at 6 am and got home at 6:30 pm, long day!  I brought my lunch with me so I wouldn't be tempted to eat the chili and bun they were serving.  I just sat in the van with Lync and ate.  I was super hungry when I got home and had a couple of weight watchers bars I instead of the one that I usually have.  I will be better today, only 4 days to weigh in so I have to smarten up!

Day 26 & 27

Day 26 started off with . I got weighed last night and I only lost 1,6 pounds. I was hoping for more but I guess I should be happy I lost something, 1 lady didn't loose anything.
Day 27 is uneventful.  Stayed within my points but feeling really hungry :(  This sucks

Day 24 & 25

Day 25 was a pretty good, finished work early did some shopping and then went to my Aquafit class in the evening.
I got my vest that I bought for when I do obedience work with the dogs, it is too small, of course.  It will be so nice when I can just go into my closet or a department store and buy something off the rack without having to look at the size.

Day 23

Omg this was a seriously long day for me!  One of my co workers called in sick today and that caused me to have to work until 5 instead of 2 , I was not happy !! Anyway, I ended up just eating a peanut butter and jam sandwich for supper, just too lazy to do anything else.  I could of had a bowl of soup that I made yesterday but I didn't think of it until after I was already making the sandwich.  Working until 5 also meant I didn't go to my Aquafit class tonight, I will go tomorrow instead. Then it's Wednesday and weigh in!

Day 22

Super Bowl Sunday! Eagles VS Patriots. I'm going for the Eagles, the Patriots have won enough :) Looking forward to the half time show with Justin Timberlake too!

Today has been good, ate my 3 meals and not even hungry yet.  I will try to make it now until morning before eating again. Tomorrow is Aquafit , sure hope that it is giving my metabolism a good boost!

Day 21

Wow 3 weeks has gone by already, that went pretty fast. I had a good day.  I ate my 3 meals and snacks, wasn't too hungry which was good. I will try hard to not snack now after supper,  Last night I drank tea and that helped.  I will try the same tonight.
It is said 1 to 2 pounds lost a week is the best but that is very discouraging I think , such a low amount , I hope to loose more. Now that I am doing some form of exercise a couple of times a week it might help to boost my metabolism, I hope so anyway.

Day 20

Yay it's Friday! Work went well and I was off at 1 so great start to the weekend.  Stayed within my points today so a pat on the back for me! I don't plan on doing anything this weekend but housework and relaxing.

Day 19

Had another Aquafit class tonight , I sure enjoy it . Stayed within my points again but had extra snacks after supper , sigh , I was just so hungry :(
I will do better tomorrow